Back to endo life

Hey! It had been so long since I come over this place (basically I wont update if everything went well) yuppp! Well..things went well on my post surgery journey. I was blessed that my life moved on without hot flush, sudden stabbing pain, night sweats, changing clothes like a mad lady. I was happy about my new life, met new friends, explored new places, good food, new job skills, nice colleagues, long distance relationship and home sick on and off. 

Things eventually changed in late of June until I found myself having blood cysts again. (2 cysts on left ovary ) (total=7cm blood cysts which were larger than the previous 6cm cyst) i could remember that i wasn't ready to accept the fact that the endo monster came back so fast and my mind was all about surgery when the radiologist said " hey girl! There were two shadow on the left ovary" 

When i met the doctor, i asked him calmly about my situation and his expression was exactly the same with the expression last year when he found my cyst get larger and had no choice but to go for surgery. I smiled at him and said "so what should we do now?doctor?" (I know it's useless to show my upset face to him) "alright! We can try medication to see how it goes" fyi, i had taken different medication for endo (2 different types of injections plus one type of pill) and now another type of pill. 

I couldn't remember how much pain i had throughout the whole endo journey last year (from diagnosis to recovery) and now i feel like things happened last year repeating again (medication with positive thinking, side effects of medication, going to hospital very often, long hours working, encouragement and love from friends and family, different supplements or treatments recommended by friends or relatives) and somehow i wanted to shout or scream to myself quietly by saying " i'm exhausted!! Really tired of this shit" 

People around me would be so kind to remind me to be positive always. i had been positively to find different ways to cure myself (on diet, websites, books in library, videos, do something i like, trying to think i'm a normal person and forget about the sickness) id been positively for 9 months and now this positive energy needs to continue until the battle lasts. but if you really do research on this endo monster, basically there is no cure for it. 

Anyway i believe i'm strong. I wont let this disease beat me down. No pain no gain. 

I still got so much love from family, bf and friends right:)

Danazol obvious side effects encountered: weight gain, muscle cramps (almost everyday) 

Cheers:)

Love

Jer

Xxx